[What she isn't saying is that she wouldn't have told him anyway. She was scared, absolutely terrified, waiting for the moment he condemned her as a demon.

But she doesn't dwell on that right now.]

The true source was that he was human. Humans are beings that fall ill. That is simply a fact of life.

... But it didn't matter. Because that man... Abe no Seimei, the diviner, appeared. He was gorgeous, but his soul as as black as the underworld... He was a half-fox himself, so he was able to easily expose my identity. He showed my ears to them all, and decried me as the source of the illness, that I was a fox demon... Man, what an uproar that was! I had to escape in a hurry after that.

[She laughs about it now, but at the time, she was terrified. Scared, confused, and alone, suddenly no longer human, waiting and afraid of being found out, and never being able to escape this nightmare... Her prayers were never answered. And then, she was exposed.]

I fled all the way to Nasu. There, all the foxes gathered around me, trying to be comforting... "You've come a long way", "what a rough journey you've had", things like that. I'm grateful for their feelings, but I wish they would have been a little more encouraging... You know, "you'll find a nicer guy soon", something like that? But it was then I remembered everything, and realized who I truly was.

[Her smile, and her cheerful facade, all of it slips for a moment.]

... Truly, I was such a fool.