You still get to exist! You can exist, and think for yourself. You have more of a chance than any of us, than Pyrrha ever did.
[The unshed tears in his eyes seem to make them brighten. He has some idea of what he's doing right now. Caster doesn't deserve to deal with his anger, or to hear such cruel words. He's scared, lost, and the only answer that doesn't end in more tragedy and lost lives would entail him having to accept what happened. He feels trapped. It's harder to formulate the right words, and he just stares at Caster, but not really at her so much as through her, finally snapping when she mentions Pyrrha again.]
I'm a failure! [His throat feels raw, his voice higher as he gestures to himself.]
Pyrrha knows that I'm just a failure. All I ever did was rely on her, hoping it would pay off and I could be the person I thought she believed in. But she didn't. She chose to push me away. I didn't get the chance to protect her and fight by her side.
[He glances up at the sky, screwing his eyes shut. His emotions are a storm, threatening to overwhelm him one moment and then fading into nothing. He just sounds tired.] This is all I have. I didn't earn my way to Beacon. If someone else had been her partner, things probably would have turned out differently. It's all my fault-- I have to fix it.
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[The unshed tears in his eyes seem to make them brighten. He has some idea of what he's doing right now. Caster doesn't deserve to deal with his anger, or to hear such cruel words. He's scared, lost, and the only answer that doesn't end in more tragedy and lost lives would entail him having to accept what happened. He feels trapped. It's harder to formulate the right words, and he just stares at Caster, but not really at her so much as through her, finally snapping when she mentions Pyrrha again.]
I'm a failure! [His throat feels raw, his voice higher as he gestures to himself.]
Pyrrha knows that I'm just a failure. All I ever did was rely on her, hoping it would pay off and I could be the person I thought she believed in. But she didn't. She chose to push me away. I didn't get the chance to protect her and fight by her side.
[He glances up at the sky, screwing his eyes shut. His emotions are a storm, threatening to overwhelm him one moment and then fading into nothing. He just sounds tired.] This is all I have. I didn't earn my way to Beacon. If someone else had been her partner, things probably would have turned out differently. It's all my fault-- I have to fix it.