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didn't have the excuse that YOU do of "mind-altering bullshit", for starters

bided my time until a guardian up and offered me a deal to help me out tbh

hmmmmmmmm

i wonder where you might find a guardian who would offer protection to a mind-warped killer

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I feel so bad for you.

yeah lucky you

[Killer. Yeah. He has that label now.

...]

what do you want, Mercury?

[ paying forward a kindness, but like hell is he going to look at it that way. ]

not about what i want, it's about what i can offer. way i see it, there's no way you should be held accountable for something that happens when nine out of ten people were acting out of their right mind. this place does that kind of shit constantly.

until things blow over and tempers cool, stick to nova. i'll keep the hounds off you. seems the guardian-ly thing to do.

[why? he doesn't ask even if he wants to.]

it doesn't matter if I was in my right mind or not. Kay is dead. so are other people, and they won't get the option to come back. someone has to own up to it.

you already have enough to deal with.

it ABSOLUTELY matters. someone's got to be held accountable, sure, but you're not going to fix anything by taking a fall for things that aren't your fault. if you're going to martyr yourself wait for a decent time for it, geeze

being a martyr and taking responsibility aren't the same thing!

so what, you just expect this to blow over?

honestly?

... yeah?

not right away, and it's going to be strained as hell for a bit, but anyone with half a brain knows how this place can be. they'll figure out that they're aiming their anger in the wrong direction sooner or later.

ok

but the elections coming up, so if you change your mind at least give me 24 hours heads up?

...thanks.

[Knowing that things could have gone very differently in that other reality or whatever it was, Jaune can't really resent Mercury. He's already accepted Emerald for a while, but he never extended that to her partner. He's sure that he's still a jerk, but...he sucks less than some of his other former deputies and a lot of people in general.

He doesn't hate him.]

because THAT would make me look good, offering amnesty and then rescinding it mid-election. if i wasn't going to follow through i wouldn't have offered.

[ Emerald liking this weirdo (sort of) probably helped flavor Mercury's decision more than a little. See? Sometimes it's about who you know. ]

just blame it on temporary madness

im glad i don't have to deal with politics.

ehhhh i'm not really going to be political

just going to be my regular old charming self

see how that goes

well you haven't screwed up yet so

some guardians do and still get re-elected

you realize how annoyed weiss is going to be if you don't have a plan

It feels like everyone's found something that you'll never even get the chance to understand.

[ She shakes her head. Getting into a conversation about Cinder and her relationship, her doubts, Mercury's insistence that she give up on her, Cassian's dislike for a woman she's never met based on what Emerald's said... It's complicated. It's better not to get into. ]

There were a couple of times, I thought I might really try with David. He's horrendous to stick around, vomit-inducingly positive, but he doesn't seem to judge me no matter what I do, even when things slip through the cracks... I murdered a banshee in front of him and he doesn't seem to have a problem with me despite that he's a chicken when it comes to horror movies. But I really don't think he could handle it if he knew me. Part of me thinks he'd just assume the best case scenario about any details I left out, or assume I was lying to try to push him away for whatever reason. It's not real, and I can't really handle him for long periods of time. I definitely don't love him, but that doesn't matter. It's gross but I kind of get why Mercury used to get with all those girls now because of David. It isn't real, but it's nice to feel like someone wants you around for something even for a minute when you know no one really does. Not more than anyone else. [ That's probably why she's taking so long with this, even if she gets constantly annoyed having to put up with all his happy. ]

I'm actually surprised David hasn't made you go insane yet. [His eyes darken when she describes the chance. He'll never have it. So why should he care anymore?]

I think I can understand why Mercury would do that. Not that I've had any luck, but... It just sounds like it would be cool to just uhm...you know. H-- [He averts his eyes oh god is he blushing in front of Emerald?] Make love and stuff without the love. [Okay you know what he's just going to toy with his glass.] Everyone seems to think that they like you when they don't even know you, they say all these nice things, but I wish they would just be honest for once. It hurts a lot less.

[ Emerald watches him, just polishing off a slice of pizza in silence as he gets all embarrassed. ]

That's funny, saying that to the best liar you know. [ She has a really dumb idea, but honestly.. This isn't the place to say it. She isn't even sure she wants to say it. Jaune gets stuff though, and it isn't like anyone would believe him if he told anyone they talked or did anything besides insult him and eat. ]

Yeah, but...

[He bites into another slice before he can get too flustered.] Somehow you've always been honest to me for a while. At least I think you have.

Do you want to have sex?

[ It's entirely possible she intentionally waited until he was eating to ask that. She's not even sure if she wants him to answer positively, but what's it going to hurt? He doesn't have to know she's a virgin too, but if they're both just... In agreement that they have enough respect not to be a creep about it and they aren't going to pretend there are feelings involved.. what's it going to hurt to ask?

Besides Jaune's breathing and dignity. ]

[He's choking on a pepperoni. He wonders if he heard her right or if he's just delirious from too much mountain dew and then he remembers. Breathing. Breathing's important.

He coughs until he feels like he can breathe again, red-faced and voice a little scratchy. He sounds incredibly unsure, as if he' not sure it was just wishful thinking, or did she really ask him?]

Sex as in? I mean yes. I want to have sex. It sounds...great.

[ Emerald doesn't quite know where she's going with this. She doesn't do stuff like this, it's just annoying that they're the only people who don't ever seem to mean anything real to someone. It just might be nice to feel good for once, even if it was only physical. Just to see if it fills that gaping sense of emptiness.

And it's teasing proof because no one would believe it happened. ]

I'll think about it if you promise not to be a freak about it.

[He's just absolutely caught off guard. The last time he had mentioned anything like what Emerald was suggesting, he had been treated like someone selfish and shallow. When it was because no one would accept him, or want him for anything more than what made them as happy as possible and as quickly as possible, had he stopped caring. Maybe it was selfish, but you know what? He was allowed to be selfish too. And if it could make them both happy, even for a short while...

But now that Emerald has stated it aloud, it's become more real. He tries to hide his nervous excitement, not wanting to be a "freak" like she just warned him.]

I promise. It's just...it's just for fun, right? Because we can. If we do end up doing this, I mean if you decide you want to, do you want us to rent a hotel room or something? [He could pay, pick somewhere nice. Whatever would make this less complicated for them.]

If it was more it wouldn't be happening. We're not really close so there won't be any emotional issues, and you've never tried to take advantage of me. You're not bad to look at. I don't want to be your girlfriend or anything, but if I'm going to try it, might as well be with someone who kind of gets it.

[ Talking about this is dumb. In fact. ] I have my own room, Merc and I moved. I'm not living on the couch anymore. My other rules is that you don't go around telling people about whatever happens. You can say it happened but don't like.. no details. That's no one's business. I'll really kill you if someone finds out anything they shouldn't.

There's a Christmas card left at the front door that reads:

"May the Christmas season fill your home with joy, your heart with love and your life with laughter. Happy Holidays!"

And then it's just signed:

/ᐠ __ ᐟ\
(=｀ﻌ´=) ฅ˒˒♥

Hi, Jaune. I'm going to get this out of the way before it gets awkward or you start objecting, so here it goes: You're no more a murderer than Cassian is a judgmental Imperial dimwit. But I don't have those memories you do of that time, so obviously I don't understand what it felt like to experience them. I just wanted to let you know that even if I've been... somewhat avoiding the topic, I'm putting it behind me. You should definitely send some flowers to K-2SO to apologize if you haven't already though.

Weiss, I...I don't know what to say. Thank you. What if Kay can't smell them?

Also I'm sorry for beating up your dad.

He can still look at him.

Wait, you did what? [ THERE WERE NO DETAILS GIVEN ON THAT, SHE JUST THOUGHT HER DAD WAS BEING AN ASS ABOUT IT.. ]

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[December 24th | Afternoon]

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