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[That feminine yelp? Was Jaune's. He doesn't have time to react, he just stares up at her from the water, bewildered.]

What are you--?

[Surely she wasn't going to murder him. She could do that anywhere. He doesn't fully understand until she grabs his hand. Bitterness, resentment that's deeply instilled, an empty sort of sadness, constantly between being completely numb or overwhelmed, compassion that gets him in trouble and the desperate desire to make sure no one else ever has to feel the same way. But other than the confusion, Jaune is starting to feel tired and blank. It's the kind of apathy he considered trying to attain, even if he didn't intentionally let himself get caught by a spirit because that would have been dumb. It hits him harder than he expects and he ends up flopping on his back in the water, not letting go.]

Edited 2017-06-26 19:48 (UTC)

[ Jaune is likely going to get some feedback from Emerald too. The Bay's basically splitting them, and since Emerald isn't empty but rather had the flower mutation that got her, he's going to feel a lot more than he bargained for. Anger, hatred, fear, helplessness, pain, abandonment issues galore, concern, intense loyalty toward Mercury and Cinder and only them, trust issues, a feeling of being lost, and lots more anger and hatred and jealousy and the sadism and cruelty she'd developed being friends with Mercury and working under Cinder. It wasn't anywhere near as bad as some of the others, but Jaune's probably lucky that the exhaustion is setting in, because Emerald's certainly not feeling any worse from his emotions, even if they're a lot more.. compassionate and good-hearted than she's used to. The whole shock of it and the onset exhaustion causes her to not quite catch on to Jaune's falling, ending with Emerald splashing in the water right next to him before shoving him to let her go. The shove is much weaker than before, and she's shaking a little bit because she misses bitterness. Bitterness was nice and light compared to the darkness she'd fallen into. It's not fair. She props herself up so her head isn't under the water (falling face down isn't fun) before speaking, but not really moving otherwise. ]

Let go.

I--

[He isn't sure what emotions belong to him and her anymore. He's been afraid plenty of times, but this is different. He's disgusted with himself and feeling loyalty to Cinder and Mercury that crazy evil waste of life murdered Pyrrha and he helped, but the abandonment issues hit too close to home and he's kind of glad for all that sadism and cruelty because it helps him ignore his own loneliness. Appreciated but never good enough. Always second best at most. No one's first choice. Even Emerald was probably Cinder's first choice. How could she not be? He understands jealousy and anger. But he wants the sadism to stay. He still remembers when he split and that he's capable of that. He kind of envies Emerald for being so okay with it. When do you get to the point where you're so sick of feeling scared and helpless that you don't care anymore? He doesn't care if Emerald doesn't care about him and he doesn't feel like he owes her. He still cares about her and it would feel wrong to just go their separate ways. Right now though, he's just exhausted. That scares him because he's so afraid that once it ends he'll just feel everything without the justified cruelty. It sucks. He keeps his head under the water, staring at the sky, before forcing himself to resurface. It's very difficult. He feels more drained than when he did after their recent battle against the spirits. There's shaking and it's not him.]

No.

Edited 2017-06-26 22:57 (UTC)

[ She looks at him when he says no, then shifts into a sitting position before jerking her hand to her opposite side. Either he's going to end up across her lap or he's going to let go. ]

We're even now, so let go.

[ One thing Jaune might feel a little later is definitely a small twinge of regret, but it's not at the forefront. Just this little spark that's buried so deep down because she doesn't want to feel it. But it's there, right alongside the fear and anger. ]

[He kind of halfway flops against her before letting go. His grip is very weak.]

It's not about being even, Emerald. You waited a while to do this, so why me?

[He'll only be more convinced that he shouldn't ignore her completely.]

I'm not going to do it to Mercury, Kay's a robot [ water+electronics=bad mix ] and I'm not giving Cassian the satisfaction of thinking I need his help. I knew you'd come. Plus, I need to tell you something anyway. Guardian stuff.

Wow, Emerald, you've made some friends. I'm proud of you. [Pauses.] Is Summer coming?

They're not my friends. Mercury's my partner, Kay is Cassian's robot, and Cassian's some jerk who won't leave me alone. [ What? She's almost distracted from the icky Jaune emotions she's trying to force down for a moment when he asks a question that she doesn't- what.. ] I.. probably? What does that have to do with anything?

So he's your stalker. What about Kay? Just because he's a robot doesn't make him a...the opposite of a friend. An acquaintance. [He's so tired. When was the last time he actually slept and felt like sleeping? He shuts his eyes.] You need to watch more TV.

He's a robot. That's like saying your right hand is your girlfriend. [ She looks genuinely concerned for him, putting a hand on his shoulder just as he closes his eyes. ] They're not real people, Jaune. [ She rolls her eyes. ] No, I'm going to tell you about space morons and the raisin-blueberry alliance.

It kinda is. But robots can talk. My hand can't. It doesn't have any vocal chords. [He opens his eyes, whispering.] They're real to me. [Back to blank face.] Blueberries are okay but I don't want to know anything about raisins. Is this about Spock? Because I agree he's a moron.

You're a freak. [ And she puts up with Mercury daily. ] Those are codenames, and no. Different space morons. We can't talk here, it's too public. [ She's stifling a yawn, too. She didn't think it would be this bad. Even though they're in the water still she doesn't feel like getting up yet. ]

That's what she said. [He frowns as much as his facial muscles are willing to do right now.] Do I even want to know who they belong to? You sound paranoid. Like those people who think everything is a conspiracy. [The water is comfortable. It's cool and and gentle.]

..Yeah? [ That's not even sexual Jaune that's a shitty joke. ] I was literally part of the actual conspiracy that took Beacon down and you're calling me paranoid. [ You're such a freak Jaune. ] I just said I'd talk to you for someone. You, Mercury, and then some people from Everglade. You can completely ignore me if you want, but if you don't want to end up a slave, you're going to want to listen.

...Nothing I just thought it was worth noting. [Slowly sinking into the water, along with any dignity he still has.] This isn't Beacon. And I don't think you would have been successful unless certain people there hadn't wanted you to be. [But that's a conversation for another time and he doesn't care what his memories of Qrow's explanation tell him. He doesn't trust Ozpin.] Why Everglade? I mean I don't really want to listen and I'm not sure why this is a bigger threat than the freezerpop was or a teleporting serial killer but I guess it's my duty to listen.

Cinder became the fall maiden, Amber is finally dead, Ozpin is dead, and we're onto the next stage. What part of that do you think someone in Beacon was helping us with?

[ Look, from what she heard Jaune was there so she's not worried about that being anything he doesn't know about. As long as she doesn't talk about specifics of anything there's no threat. ]

Because those are the other people I know might listen. [ She pauses. ] You mean Icy and Battler? Icy broke out of prison during the breach and I knew where Battler was for those months you couldn't find him. [ She figures those little tidbits of information ought to at least pique his interest enough to think she has information of value. She finally pushes herself up to stand up out of the water. ] Come on, I want to get this over with.

I don't think they intentionally helped you. But if Ozpin wasn't too prideful of an idiot things might have turned out differently. Whatever.

[He doesn't want to talk about this.]

Icy? The hot crazy ice-powered villain? No, I meant the alien who tried to take over Nova City and did a terrible job. You knew where Battler was. [He repeats it slowly, trying very hard not to freak out. That sadism and cruelty is still there and he holds onto it. He doesn't move.]

Who sounds paranoid now?

Oh, that guy. Yeah no one was really impressed with him. People who have real power know not to brag about it. [ She holds a hand out to tug him up. ] You seem to keep forgetting I'm not a good person, Jaune. I know a lot of terrible people and about a lot of terrible things I don't tell you about. This particular one is one that I am offering to help a.. "friend" who's terrified because of what these people did in their original world but agreed not to freak out and try to murder them on the spot like he wanted to.

Edited 2017-06-28 23:03 (UTC)

It's not paranoia. You probably know enough about him from Cinder to realize that.

[He almost stumbles into her, yawning into his hand. He says without thinking.] Sometimes I envy that. [He brightens just a little.] So you do have friends. And it's someone you don't hate enough to do a favor for him. Is it the robot?

Cinder killed him. All I really know is that he was arrogant.

[ She's going to shove him ahead then. He can lead the way to somewhere private, so his stuff will get the damp clothes on them. ]

Why do you keep thinking I'm friends with a robot? It's Cassian, and he's not a friend. I said friend like "friend" with quotation marks.

He never got to answer for what he did.

[Does Emerald want to go to his tent? He walks ahead at first, but stops to walk beside her.]

Why wouldn't you be? That's still basically Emerald for a friend. Cassian is your friend.

Get over it. He literally paid with his life. Just because you didn't get to do it or whine at him first doesn't change anything.

[ Does Jaune need help being a hobo? Because tents are honestly not great. She'll judge him and teach him how to properly find a good squatting building. ]

Mercury is a friend. Cassian is not a friend. Cassian is an acquaintance with steak.

Dying and making up for what he did to Pyrrha aren't equal. A lot of others were hurt too. He got out easy. And don't be a jerk.

[He does, Emerald. He needs so much help with it.]

He has steak?

I'm glad Ozpin's the one you're mad at for Pyrrha. That makes most sense.

[ She is a jerk, Jaune. ]

He has steak.

Are you mocking me or being serious? I'm mad at both of them. But that doesn't stop me from recognizing that Pyrrha never would have felt pressured to be put in that situation if team Creepy Conspiracy hadn't played up on her need to do what's right that anyone who even pays the slightest bit of attention can notice. They never even pretended to act like they weren't responsible.

I want steak...

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