IC Inbox ☽☽ genessia

[aurabble]

"Hi,  Jaune Arc here!  ...Except that, I'm actually not here right now.  Or  maybe I am and I just re-discovered decent comic books but I mean, I'm  probably not ignoring you.  So leave me a message.  Unless you were  trying to call someone else.  Then you should call them.  Smiley face."

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[unhappy]

I've killed people for disloyalty before, Jaune. Not because I was asked to. I stole the job from Torchwick. I thought the person deserved it.

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[aurabble]

Did they, Emerald? Does Cinder deserve your loyalty? Mercury I kind of understand, he actually cares. You don't have to keep doing this.

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[unhappy]

Do you remember that weird week a while ago, where our positions were changed? You worked for Salem, I was some homeless girl no one gave a damn about?

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[aurabble]

I remember. I also remember murdering people for someone who doesn't give a damn about either of us.

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[unhappy]

Yeah, that version of me had memories of getting hunted down by Mercury and inevitably getting killed by a Grimm in the Fall of Beacon after living a miserable life, alone and starving more often than not.

The only difference is that I said no to Cinder and ran. Whether I do right or wrong doesn't make a difference. But Cinder's the reason I have everything I do have now. She's the first person to ever look at me as something other than a nuisance, and the only person to see value in me.

Maybe she's a monster, but Cinder's the only reason I even have a place in the world. This or any other. That week was just a reminder that I could've said no and it would've been the biggest mistake of my life, no matter where I am now.

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[aurabble]

Maybe Cinder's the reason you had a place at first, but she doesn't have to be here. You know how you got mad because I didn't want to tell you what happened? I didn't want to hurt you. I know I still did, but...

You matter. You matter to me.

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[unhappy]

Most people here all seem to be central to some kind of intense story from their worlds. I've yet to meet someone whose grandest adventure was a trip to the supermarket across town instead of the one at their street corner. I don't think I would've even ended up here if she didn't take an interest in me. I probably wouldn't have met you back home, definitely not here. I don't have a story without her, Jaune. Without her, I just... no matter how hard I try, it doesn't amount to anything. It never does. Even Mercury was barely able to convince me I wasn't a burden. I'm still not sure I bought it even from him, since I know what he thinks when he's drunk.

I know I matter to you, and Mercury, and Cassian. I'm not sure if it's better or worse, having people who care for me but knowing all I'm going to do is disappoint you.