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[aurabble]

"Hi,  Jaune Arc here!  ...Except that, I'm actually not here right now.  Or  maybe I am and I just re-discovered decent comic books but I mean, I'm  probably not ignoring you.  So leave me a message.  Unless you were  trying to call someone else.  Then you should call them.  Smiley face."

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[aurabble]

You don't have to worry about paying me back. You're not the one I'm upset with.

[He nearly flinches, as if caught in a lie. Positive or negative sides, he still feels exposed when Weiss mentions his flaws. Maybe even moreso with this one because it feels more sincere.]

I hold back a lot more than you think. Sometimes I curse in my head. But I don't say it out loud because I was raised to think cursing is wrong. But it can't be wrong if it's the truth. [There's a small, brittle smile.]

Does it bother you? I can stop if it does.

No, you're not wrong. It feels wrong to just stay here. [He stares at her thoughtfully. He could use this as an opportunity to look for Emerald himself, but he doesn't particularly want to put Weiss in danger.] But if you're out there, your other half is going to worry about you, and that's going to distract her. So that's wrong too.

[whiteas]

I don't.. want to make you hide who you are or cover it up if it's truly helping you and not just inducing you to snowball into further anger. The way I was raised, it makes it uncomfortable for me, though. I was taught that using such language makes you.. well, a lot of things I know you're not, Jaune.

[ At least, not things she would consider him anymore. Vulgar and trashy? Certainly not, and she refrains from speaking the exact words to spare his feelings. She doesn't want him accusing her of thinking wrong things about him, especially when she knows he isn't. ]

I'm fairly certain I'd forgive myself for not telling myself first. [ She's giving herself permission, does that count.. ]

[aurabble]

I'm not angry. Being around you makes me happy. I'll stop for you, but if you know I'm not, why let it bother you?

[He stares at her warily. Was she just saying those things because she was the kind version of herself? Or was she being sincere?] Do you mean that?

Are you? I didn't think you were so forgiving of your mistakes. [She is a perfectionist, after all.]

[whiteas]

Because there are some things I've been taught from birth and speaking properly is one of them. It isn't as though it's easy to overcome things like that overnight, try as I might with many of them.

[ "Unlearning" is sometimes just as important as learning, but far more difficult. ] If I thought such negative things about you, I don't think even my other half would've stuck around you or trusted you to leave me here. I mean what I said.

[ That's a difficult thing. ] I recognize them and I try to improve on those mistakes. But I don't think I'd ever consider doing the right thing a mistake, even if it didn't end the way I wanted it to.

[aurabble]

Properly. [He scoffs.] It doesn't matter how educated you sound, an insult is still an insult.

[He keeps staring, before finally his gaze strays to the ground.] Funny. Her and you had very different things to say.

She might forgive herself, but I doubt she'd forget me if I let anything happen to you. I can't do that. I can't let you leave. Not yet anyway. I'd offer to go with you, but... [Shrugs. They both know his track record of looking after friends.]

[whiteas]

I know that, but it doesn't make it any easier to knock something I've had drilled into me since I was a child. That's why I said if that's who you are and how you want to speak, it's okay. But I did notice you only do it when you're angry or upset.

[ She watches him as his gaze turns away from her. ] What did she say?

[ Weiss doesn't like being told that he can't let her leave, a little concerned about that. ] What happens if I try to anyway? The Jaune I know wouldn't let someone saying no stop him, especially me.

[aurabble]

Well, I'm certainly not upset now. I'm happier than I've been in... I don't know. Longer than I can remember.

That I'm an idiot who doesn't understand the meaning of the word "no". [He folds his arms, shoulders tense.] It doesn't matter now. I like you more.

[He finally looks back at her.] You're right. I have to keep you safe, Weiss. You might not be happy about it, you might even resent me, but I'm just asking you to trust me. It's better than the alternative.